Amazing. Not 5 hours after I was really frustrated and upset with things in general, I'm back to normal. I don't believe it. It only took some time talking to Sam and a couple of other people, a little crying, a few hugs, and some laughter. (and a couple games of magic :)

And within those 5 hours, I went from being the 'counseled' to the counselor. I wish there was something more I could do... I don't like seeing suffering. I don't enjoy watching someone sob their heart out, or two people feeling shunned by the house. Suffice it to say: I don't agree with all that's transpired. But these people are all my friends - so I'm there for any of them. I just want this situation dealt with quickly and painlessly, so that everyone involved is happy again. Perhaps that's a naive way to view it - I'm not sure if it's possible right now, though I fervently hope it is. But I'll do anything in my power to work towards that end. And I'm awfully proud of Sam, Phil, Sandy, Maryam and the many others who have stepped up to the challenge of banding together to provide support to both sides, rather than dividing into opposing camps.

Here's to hoping for peace and happiness within the house someday soon. Or at least in this one area.
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As an aside: I'm an incredibly lucky woman. I'm majoring in a field that I love. I'm dating a guy whom I trust and love dearly (who loves me and treats me amazingly well), and I'm not afraid to rely on him for support. I'm performing in two top-notch music groups, and I'm in demand as a musician for the glee clubs and other events. I'm improving my riding skills all the while, and Davee constantly praises my success in learning how to jump. I'm travelling to both Ireland and Germany this summer (and spending <$600 out of pocket). I have incredibly nice and caring friends, who are happy for me. Friends come to me for advice and support, and I can help them to some extent. I'm happy in so many ways, it's scary. I can't think of any other time in my life I've been so upbeat and positive about how things were going... it's almost unbelievable.

So why is it so easy to forget all of this when I come up against something difficult? I need to remember to count my blessings more often...